The So-called LIFE

I love sleeping. Back in college, I used to sleep a lot at-least 8-10 hours a day. And even when I got my first job, I can sleep anywhere. I don’t have a problem sleeping. Ako yung tipo na “masandal, tulog”. My friends are laughing everytime they see me sleeping on a chair with a straight body (talent ko ata ‘to). Anyway, why am I telling this? It’s because I missed it.

It’s almost 3 years now since me and my gf broke up. Since then, I never had an 8 hours sleep. Not that I’m devastated with what happen, It’s because it made me realized that a MAN has a great responsibility for himself and for others close to him. That i need to focus on my career rather than gimiks; family rather than friends. And so I focused on my work, business, family at work pa ulet. It’s hard to maintain business when you’re working at night, especially kung may sideline(freelancing) ka pa but I managed to divide my time. ‘Yun nga lang, naapektuhan ang pagtulog ko. I only get 4 to 6 hours of sleep, sometimes 3 hours kapag minalas-malas pa. I now have a sleeping problem. I don’t know, my friend told me that maybe I was thinking too much that when I try to sleep na, hindi ko na magawa. Well, it maybe true. As I want to say, “life is for living; there’s plenty of time for sleeping when you’re dead!” . There’s too much to do, see and enjoy and just not enough hours in the day to be sleeping them all away.

But these past three days, I was able to sleep more than 8 hours without thinking anything. I slept like a baby. I’m so refreshed when I woke up. It feels good, I love it!

Iba talaga ang nagagawa ng RED HORSE at GENEROSO! Hahaha…

Yesterday, I was in the office early. I mean really early, I was there 5 hours before office hours (Good thing I have a key). I had an interview that day in one of the company in Makati. I’m looking for a part-time job, a free-lance work or whatever. I want to maximize my time since I wake up early everyday doing non-sense thing. I want to be productive (really?!). I want to be complete (ano to centrum?!). Okay, okay I admit, I have a financial problem. Not that it’s a problem, it just my budget is really tight.

It all started on the first week of 2008 (sucks!) when we have to leave our home for some reason. We rented in an apartment where I paid 2 months advance and 1 month deposit. I thought this is the year where I can saved money, now f*** I have to pay it’s monthly rental. It’s ok to pay this if not to my credit card bills and sister’s tuition fees. But I have no choice, my father is still here waiting for his visa and I’m the only one who’s financially stable.

I checked my expenses and looked on what to cut to saved some money. I saw my gasoline expenses as the biggest one. I thought of not bringing a car or just schedule it for MWF but damn I CAN’T DO THAT. I’m so used to that already and commuting is so tiring plus it would take me 1-2 hours to get to Makati if I did that. Where as if I brought a car, it would only take me 30 minutes to get there and I have a “FREE” parking (thanks to my boss!) so why would I cut this. I looked into other expenses, however, no matter how I squeeze it, there is no way I can put money on my savings account.

Before the year-end last 2007, I bought an eyeglass worth 5 digits. I know that’s expensive for an eyeglass and to think I’m planning to have a lasik surgery before or after the year-end. Well, the reason for this, I wanted to look good. Some say I looked old and stressed (in short, ugly!) wearing the other eyeglass I had before. So I decided to boost my self-esteem by looking good. And I’ll be even more confident once I had the surgery (wish ko lang!).

I’m happy despite all these. I just finished paying one on the long list of my credit card bills, a cell phone that I used 25 days only before the snatchers took it from me. I have one also ending this January 30 and two more on July. (whew!) Thank God, this is a great relief. However, I still have one ending on 2009 but still I’m happy. At least, I only have one to pay for and that’s for good. I will never ever again commit the same mistake. The next time I want something, I’ll just go for cash.

I still looked positive this year. I’m going to buy a macbook this March. I’ll be needing this to accommodate all existing and future projects to come. I will get a new cell phone. I’ll pay monthly bills and responsibilities. I will still use my car everyday. And I will continue to do these because as I always say, “I’d rather be, if not rich, at least comfortable, than broke.“

I just finished wrapping the things I bought early this morning. I started 1:13 PM and it’s now 8:06 PM in the evening. (whew!)

I actually have no plans of buying gifts to my inaanak, pamangkin, friends and family. I plan to just give them money for the Christmas. However, when I woke up this morning, the spirit of Christmas came to me. I was up 7:30 AM and began preparing myself to the mall. I got there 9:30 AM, the mall is still closed (damn!) Buti na lang, may baon ako yosi. I smoked in the parking lot pero aga ko natapos kaya naisipan ko muna kumain (open ang food court). I ate my favorite inihaw na liempo with rice, pancit malabon, bopis and pineapple juice for only 50 bucks (kung sa office to malamang mga 150 bucks plus VAT). Sakto 10:00 AM natapos ako, open na ang mall. I started looking for the gifts. Naghanap ako ng mura pero useful (It’s the thought that counts!) hehe

I finished it around 12:30 PM. ‘got to my computer shop by 1:00 PM and opened it for renting. Habang nagbabantay ng shop, I’m also wrapping the gifts. So I’m kinda busy the whole day ’till 8:06 PM. I checked on the list of inaanak and pamangkin when I noticed I didn’t put Camille (my inaanak to Kuya Ronald) and her two siblings. Oh no, I forgot them. I thought I put all the names on the list. Now, I have to buy another 3 gifts tomorrow. huhuhu… This is so tiring. Hope I can still…